Whew....

Well, well, well!!! So much has happened this year that I can hardly bring it the attention it may deserve on this posting, but I'll try to hit the highlights.
First and foremost, can you believe that another year is already gone? It seems to go so slowly, but then it's over.
Let's see...I think the last post was around Thanksgiving of 2007, at which time I was still healing from my broken jaw. Ah, getting older!!
Well, after that, I moved the beginning of Feb. '08, as did my son, Jaeson. As a matter of fact he, along with the help of his cousin, Jimmy, moved me one weekend and then the three of us moved Jaeson the next weekend. Actually, it was probably the other way around, but still a hell of a month.
For the next four months nothing to extraordinary went on until the beginning of June. Just about exactly one year after my quitting smoking, perhaps to much for the old girl (me). Anyway, hello!!! It's time to shake things up with a Subarachniod Hemorrhage, otherwise referred to as a form of stroke. It involves bleeding of the brain for no apparent reason (no injury to the head, etc.), at least in my case. As is evident with this posting, I survived!!!! One heck of a outcome since 50% of suffers don't survive long enough to attain medical help. Although I appreciate the outcome, I certainly hope not to do that again!!!
More good news in or about Sept. for my son, he has a new relationship with a local girl in his new home town and that not anything to sneeze at!!!
Thanksgiving this year was spent together with my son, Jaeson and his girlfriend and her family in Pennsylvania. It was a very nice time.
Christmas is now past, and the new year is only days away. It doesn't seem possible. Another year gone. Let us all count our blessings!! I'm sure we have more than enough to rejoice in!! May God bless us all and may we be a blessing to all we touch!!!

A year already!!!

I can't believe that once again another year has been lived and is now gone. I don't think I appreciated it as I should have. It seems that to do so is very, very hard to do. I try to remind myself of all the blessings I have and for a while I truly appreciate the moment. Then all the other things life brings ushers themselves on and around me, and appreciation lacks. I am going to train myself to respond to appreciation, with appreciation. Sounds so simple, but I need full concentration to pull it off. I do realize that the only true way to fail at anything is to stop trying to succeed. I refuse to be a loser as an example to anyone who takes note of my passing by in this life. Perhaps it's age. Hopefully, with (if God grants more time)time, I'll find peace. To all who struggle with depression of any kind, or with life's trials that seem overwhelming for the most part, I understand, I am here to say that, and to hope that we all can find a reason to WANT to keep on, keeping on. Perhaps it will just be as simple as believing that we are here for some reason! If not for ourselves, in some way, for others. Do something wonderful for someone else. It will make your existence feel worth something, at least for the moment. This all sounds like a huge pity party, perhaps in large part it is. Pity for a life screwed over, under, on top....well you get the idea. I think most people have dreams, wishes and hopes. I believe most people want to be loved and to love. I guess what I'm saying is I believe there is a line of demarcation between living and existing. This post will hit home to many who exist, and always have. Outside looking in. God help us. It is not who we want to be..... Don't give up though, even (which, by the way, is sometimes almost impossible not to do) if only as an example to the ones we love and so as to not set a precedence which may be interpreted as o.k. Instead of giving up, write.

Hump day....

Well, it's Wednesday and soon the weekend will be here.  Hurray!!!  My oldest son is on his way with a co worker to Texas for his job and I will be o my way to Kentucky to attend a hair show with my sister who is  a  cosmetologist.  I'm only going to get away and to keep her company since I'm not a cosmetologist.  Well, I just hope things are somewhat back to normal in Texas, they got hit hard by a hurricane recently, I think 'Ike' was it's name.  A lot of electrical outages and flooding and other problems , too.  We here in my part of Ohio got a lot of damage from high winds left over from "Ike".  A lot of people still without electric since Sunday.  Lucky me thought got my electric back on Monday.

Been a long time.....

Well It has been a long time since I've added a post to my blog. I doubt anyone even checks it anymore, but It might prove to be a stress reliever, so here goes.
June and July this year were mostly used to regain some type of normalcy in my life. I suffered a subarachnoid hemerage, (that's not spelled right, but it's close enough) commonly known as a form of stroke, at the beginning of June. It just came out of nowhere and took me totally down. I am so blessed to be here at all and especially with seemingly no long term side affects except that I poop out way more easily.
Well, that pretty much the meat of the update. I am back at work and doing ok, I'm just pretty tired when I get home. All things considered, everything is going well. I also got a different schedule of hours at work, which I like better. In part due to my stroke. So, sometimes good things due come out of bad ones.

Mom's

Today I saw people and heard from people that bring me joy. Just 'cause they exist, it makes my life happier.
I saw my 'sister friend', Shelly. She's so sweet and inspiring. She always has a smile for everyone, but somehow when it's your turn to receive one, it sure makes you feel special.
I heard from my friend, Bobby, who is somehow always able to convey to you that you are important. Just as important as anyone in this world. She always has time to help anyone who needs it. And, shes good at it, too!!
Yesterday I heard from another friend, one that I've known for a long time. Patty is a wonderful person who certainly has had her share of downs, but finally, she has found someone who recognizes her goodness and things are looking up.
One thing we all have in common is that we are, of course, all women, and moms, too! I would like to take this moment in time to say to all of us, Happy Mother's Day!!! I love us all!!
Of course, not everyone who brightens my life simply because they exist are mom's, or even female. My son, Jaeson, a.k.a. Paul J, also is in that special group!! And I heard from him, too!! He always makes me feel happy to be alive when I hear from him. I'm so blessed, and so proud of him!! And, I love him, too, of course!!!

What else is new???

Well, we've all been there!! Somehow, although everything seems to be rolling along just as it always does, it isn't!! I've been trying to decide whether my Ford, Tempo (4 cyl./1987) is worth putting new ball joints and wheel bearings on , or not. I thought this was my only decision, however since the news of the ball joints and bearings, she's developed a leak somewhere that causes me to have to replace break fluid about every two weeks when the break light comes on. Also, she has decided to only allow left turn signals to be given. And now, the newest, she has decided to not even try to start, yes I mean, no noise, effort or anything indicating any hope of an engine starting, to be her newest response to my wanting her to take me somewhere!!! I think, perhaps, after much research, that she may need her neutral safety switch replaced, or adjusted, and/or, likewise, her selector linkage. Oh, well!!! Perhaps, this is the fates telling me that it's time to let her give up the ghost and be laid to rest! Or, perhaps, it's a test!! Well, I'll investigate, and ponder for a while longer, and eventually, I'll come to a decision.

Once again...

You know how sometimes we can delude ourselves into thinking one of those ,"If only" or " I can't wait until" thoughts, and just know how great it would be?? What I mean is when you say to yourself, "If only I had the day off, I could get so much done." then when you have the day off, it somehow doesn't work out that way at all. Well, anyway, once again another Thursday has pretty much come to an end and I haven't really accomplished much of anything. Thursday's I get off work at 8 pm instead of 10:30 pm. I always look forward to Thursdays 'cause I think how great it's going to be since I'll be able to get things done after work before the stores close and get to watch some tv, too, since I'll be home earlier in the evening. I don't have cable, so I find it a treat to get to see something besides the late, and late, late shows. Once again though, I didn't really get anything done and I didn't get home before 11 pm. Oh well, I'll keep on try'n! At least I did get to get outdoors for a while. It was a beautiful evening to be outside. At around 8 pm it was a pleasant 70 degrees. Hope for a bunch more days with like weather.

Just laz'in

Here's just a normal day in the life of the kitties, George (Orange and White) and Sissy (Gray and Black and White). They do have a difficult time of it putting up with their roommate, but they try hard to be fair.

Out and About...

Here I am again in Erie at my son's place. He's only been here since January of 2008, so he's still getting used to the place and the surroundings, too. I think he's going to better off where he is now. He misses the solitude of his place in Conneaut, Ohio and, of course, he misses being an Ohioian, though he always will be in his heart. But, all things considered, he's moving on up in all the right ways and I'm proud and happy for him. He's worked very hard at attaining whatever goals he's set for himself, and it's paying off. I know it sounds like just the opinion of a typical mother bragging about her son, but this boy only got less than an 'A' one time from kindergarten, through five years of college. So, it's not just mom's opinion. He's very intelligent, but, not a genius, so he has always given more than a 100% effort to obtain his goals. I don't know where he gets his drive from, but I certainly can't take credit for any of his accomplishments. They're due to his dedicated drive, and his courage to follow through. You go, babe!! I feel privileged to watch you grow. Anyway, I am so glad to be able to spend time with my son. I hope we will always stay close and an active part in each others lives no matter what comes our way in the future. I'm sure we will!!!

I'm learning!??

Well, maybe not. I was just thinking I had figured out one mistake, and I made another. Well, that's how many things are learned, right, through our mistakes!! In that case I should be a master at this blogging thing really soon!!
I spell checked my last blog and corrected everything, I thought, but when I looked it over after a successful posting, all my spelling errors were still there. So back to find out where I may have gone wrong and I decided that I probably should have hit the save now button after correcting the blog and then published it.
Well, if your viewing my blog,I'm sure you can see my most recent mistake...oh well, let's see if at least I'm right about the spell checking. Here come some on-purpose spelling errors which I'll correct and see if I can keep them that way. I hope so. But, I'm not sure. Here goes!!

New Attitude

Well, I'm going to try this again. I'm finding it really frustrating try to find my way around in computer and blog land. I've been out of the realm of computer ease for too long and boy am I rusty, not to mention there's been a lot of new stuff added in the last few years. Well, here goes. I just hope it goes where I intend it to, since I have no idea where my last blog has gone to. Perhaps the russians are having fun trying to decipher it as it creeps across their computer screen in some desolate, god forsaken part of Russia. It could happen I suppose!
Anyway, I am just now trying to figure out if it's possible for me to find my way around blogging. Here goes!!
My title says it all pretty much. I'm bound and determined to find a new attitude towards life in general. I'm an old geezer, and probably I should have figure a lot of things out way before this, but better late than never, I guess. As I've grown older I've realized just how little control we truely have over our lives. Pretty hard to believe that I never saw how true this is. For so long I have tried to figure out what I was doing wrong because things just didn't seem to be going the way I felt they should. Oh, boo-hoo!!! Well, not that I'm boo-hooing, in fact all things concidered, I've had a very good life. I'm just pretty dense about somethings. I really thought that because things weren't the way I felt they should be going that it was something to be depressed about, because certainly it was something I should have been able to better control the outcome of, or I should have done something different and then it would have staved off the bad times. But, I now realize, that try as we may and should, we often have very little control over the most hurtful and scarey things that come our way in life. And it's not something that we can control. It's only how we react and how we let it affect us that we have a hope of controling and then in a very real sense we control the quality of our lives. I don't know if any of this is making any sense to anyone, and I doubt that it comes as news to those who do understand what I'm trying to convey, but hey, it something I going to lend a bit of attention to, and see if I can master how my attitude towards life is. Hopefully, it will mean less days of being depressed and more days of enjoying each day of life I'm given. Anyway, writing this was something I wanted to share in hopes that others out there might also find a way to have a new attitude, and a better outlook on life. Good luck all!! Bye for now.