Lord lead us to find happiness and love........

Well, a lot has happened. It's been awhile since I've blogged. No one really follows my blog and I wouldn't either except that it's sort of a journal for me.
I went to visit my oldest sister (she's 75 years young this year) and her husband, down in Marion, Ohio. We had a wonderful visit. I love listening to her about her life. I didn't meet her till 1995, even though we share the same mom. Our , mother died in 1965, when I was 9 yrs. old. She would have been about 30 at the time. Anyway, due to circumstances at the time, I grew up under the eye of the children's services , as did my one full sister, whom I was lucky enough to live with in our various foster homes till I was about 13 years old. I didn't see or know much of her after that until she graduated high school about 3 yrs. later. Even then, I was still in foster homes, and school, so I saw very little of her. Perhaps on holidays like Christmas, that was about it.
Anyway, Joann was pregnant with her first child when our mother was pregnant with me. So, consequently I am the same age as my sister's daughter, who is no longer living. She died in her twenty's. Freaky, huh?
Well, when we get on the phone together, we usually talk for about 3 hrs, or so. Her husband Roy is her second husband. She got a divorce from her first husband after about 45 years of marriage. She got married to her second husband, whom she went to the same school with, but never dated, since about 2 or 3 years after her divorce from her first husband. Her current husband and her have been married now for about 7 years, they are very much still in love. And, they like each other, too!!!! We all had a wonderful time together, although it was the 4th of July weekend, we barely noticed. We did all have fun though. Poor Roy pretty much was on his own, he would tire of our reminiscing, he's heard it all before, so he'd go about his business and leave us to ourselves. Now, that's love, God bless him.
I found out on my last night at my sister's via my son's blog that he had lost his girlfriend. of about 2 and a half years, about 9 mos. of which he has been his almost stepdaughter's only babysitter., which by the way really cut into his free time, since her mother was gone Wed.-Sun. from 6 pm till 4am and he was the care giver for the daughter. In fact, his girlfriend starts a new work shift the coming up week, and my son was babysitting her daughter while she was at work on Sat. when she texted him that she wanted to break up with him. She also facebooked him with the same info. All this while he has charge of her daughter's care. That was perhaps done to show someone at work that she really was breaking it off with her current boyfriend, ya think????? Now with her new shift, she can easily get regular daycare. It's not so easy when you work a weird midnight shift. Talk about someone who has heaped coals on their own head, wow!!!!!!!!! Look out, God don't like UGLY!!!!! Boy is this, UGLY!!!!! Now, I know I don't know everything, but come on, there's a right way and then, there's a RIGHT WAY!!!!! Anyway, it's my son and her daughter who are suffering the most. But, I do trust that God will answer the prayers of all of us who are interceding on behalf of my son, and he will find happiness and the one whom he truly deserves. I now this. God guide us all, always!!!!!! That's all for now.

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Sunday, July 27, 2008
update

It's been a while since my last post and once again I've somehow messed up. In trying to remember how to post to my blog, I've created a second blog. Oh Lord !!! Well, I'll keep this short since my computer literate son will have to help me get back on track in the blogging world. I am doing well and have a lot, as usual, to be thankful for. I recently had a health scare, but I'm fine now. It does give you a more intense viewpoint on what's important in life, at least it did me. However, it doesn't help you figure out how to deal with those important things. Oh well, can't have everything. I've got a lot of blessings. I'm just going to concentrate on that for the time being. Bye for now. Whoever might come across this blog, I wish you all the best in life, and many good turns.
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A beautiful day!

Well, granted it's been awhile since I've posted anything. All has been rolling along and taking me right along with it as life does everyone. I still feel I'm on the outside looking in, but that's the natural state of affairs for me, anyway. Things certainly haven't been bad. This is the first weekend in two weeks that I've spent any time at home. I am kinda feel'n lost, but hopeful. Two weekends ago I drove my friend down to Cincinnati to visit with, and then bring back with us her son who attends Cincinnati University and hasn't been able to get home for a visit since Christmas. That's way too long to go without seeing your son, so off we went as soon as he got the go ahead to take off some time from his job. Then last weekend, my friend, her son, her step son and I drove back down to Cincy to take him back to his home away from home and back to work. All went well on both journeys and I even got the chance to visit with my oldest sister and her husband as we all needed something to eat just as we came within 20 miles or so of where she and her husband live in Marion, Ohio, on our return trip from Cincinnati. We all got together for a bite to eat at the local Applebee's in Marion, Ohio and I was able to buy a meal for my sister and her husband, in part to celebrate her up and coming birthday of May 22, and also to celebrate, Mother's day, which it just so happened to be that day. Also, when I went down to visit my sis and her husband last time, they insisted on buying out meal when we went out to Applebee's , so it was pay back time. I went to a local theater last night with my girlfriend and saw a co-worker of mine in the play, "I Hate, Hamlet". The actors were excellent and we enjoyed ourselves tremendously. After the play we met up with a couple of my friends co-workers and watched some very, and not so very, talented people performing 'karaoke". We danced quite a bit and then moved on to another place where my friend knew the members of the live band playing there. Once again, we danced. Then we went to a great greasy spoon in town for a "Jack's Omelet" that will last through about 3 meals and then home, finally, at around 4:30 am, safe and sound! Whew!!! Anyway, I'm trying to get motivated in some direction today, the weather is fine, the time is mine and all I've accomplished thus far is a bath and talking to two friends on the telephone, one of which is going to take a nap and the other on the way to help out her parents for a bit. All is well with the world as far as my world goes, as far as I know. Love to any and all who find their way to this post!!! That's all folks!!

Life!!! Glorious Life!!!!

Well, today was my first day back to work after taking a long weekend trip. I had from Sat. through Monday to visit with my big sister near Columbus, OH. and her awesome husband, Roy. God Bless him, truly, for putting up with myself and my big sister!!! We took over the house, and whatever room we decided to be in, and he put up with us. My sis and I had a wonderful visit for two and a half days. I hadn't seen either of them since last year in June, at my nephews wedding. Way too long. Until recently I didn't have a reliable vehicle to travel in. Now that I do, I am planning to do more traveling. And especially to where my big sister and her wonderful husband live. I'll try hard not to wear out my welcome, though. I actually did quite well on my adventure. I didn't get lost going down or coming back. Pretty good since I've not traveled hardly at all. Well, anyway, I think it was a wonderful trip. Not all that far, as trips go, but, awesome in my opinion!!! Yeah, road trips!! I plan on expanding my adventures soon, really soon!!!!

Oh Brother!!!!!

Well, I've officially calmed down about my work situation. I always knew it really wasn't worth getting upset about, but a slap in the face, out of nowhere, and people strutting their stuff, just to show who's boss, (As if!!!!!!!), can really get under my skin quick!!!! Gotta get an even thicker skin than what my 54 years on this planet have garnered me. I'm working on it. A very sweet and insightful co-worker of mine had some wonderful advice. She said that from the sounds of it, it would probably not hurt to just look at my job situation as if it were a "Circus that's come to Town". Sit back and enjoy the show!!! In other words, don't take it personally, seriously and certainly don't ever try to make sense of it. Just show up, find something humorous to keep you entertained and enjoy the show. After all, at least this event pays you to attend!!!! So the other day I told my co-worker that I was enjoying watching the elephants at the circus, especially the ones with the pink tu-tu(s)!!!! We both had a good laugh about that!!! I thank God for my friends, they keep me grounded in reality, even when everything seems so unreal!!! So, anyway, I'm fine, all is well and I truely hope everone enjoys the elephants as much as I do!!!!! Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!!!

Like....?????

Well, like.....got another test that will hopefully not be a cause of anything. Although I think I need to find out what's going on sometime, soon.
Well, like.....I need to find a way to make work, work. I'm heading for a very possible disaster.
Well, like.....I need a vacation.....sooner, rather than later!!!
Well, kinda like all that and a bag of chips!!!!!! Yeah, that!!!!
Well, like, it was really great to talk to my oldest sister, Joann. Hope to see her in person real soon. Maybe, like, that vacation I was talking about. Columbus, here I come?????

It's the little things.....

Sometimes it's the littlest thing(s) that can be that last straw. I know this all too well. I really feel very much a wimp sometimes. I do believe though that sometimes it's not so bad to just be a mess. Hopefully , in private. But, sometimes everything adds up to one big deal. Help me God to gain strength, to be a blessing to all and to go in the direction you want me to go!!!

Prayers, Please.......Thank you all !!!!

I would really be very grateful to be included in every ones prayers. I really have so much to be grateful for, this I do know. However, it's a time for the need of some extra prayers. I'd truly appreciate being included during your times of prayer. I will do the same in return. Sometimes things seem to be overwhelming, OK, allot of times, but most times we all hold it together, pray, gain strength and direction, and carry on. Once in a while it feels good to ask for help when you feel so confused as to what is going on. I'm not making much sense even to myself, but I am still asking everyone out there to include me in your prayers. Nothing really bad is going on, but I really feel out of control, and that the situation could quickly become very bad if I don't handle myself correctly. Sometimes, for me anyway, the hardest person to pray for is myself. I guess it's that "forest for the trees", or is it, "the trees, for the forest"? Told you I was confused. I need guidance and strength from above, ASAP. Thank you all so much. It's my prayer for all that God truely bless you.

I wish I had boots......

Today was a day that could have brought a new hope, a new way of being an employee, a good, if not great employee. But, instead, even more of the cow towing (is that spelled right for a word that probably doesn't really exist??!). Oh well, I guess the best lesson I can take away from this demeaning, slap in the face is to not take too much pride in a job well done. That gives your efforts value, and guess what?!!! No one else values you or your work. So it is sad to say this, but if you work extra hard, and take pride in the quality of your work, someone for some reason will find it not a good thing and slap your happy, little ass right down!!! Boy, some lessons are hard to learn. At least for me!! But, I think I finally got it!!! Do the minimum on the job, but make it seem like your busting your ass, instead of really give a dam and really busting your ass. Somehow, a job can evidently be done too well which seems to scare the hell out of others, some of them in the "higher up" category and they'll bring you down!!!! I don't pretend to understand all of this, but now it's clear, even to stupid, dense, me, that although jobs are at a premium, the worst thing I can to do is a good job. Act like your struggling to just maintain the basic requirements of the job and all will be well for you. Dam, I've been so wrong for so long I know it will be difficult to adjust, but I plan on being the best pretender/slacker, and the least accomplished employee that ever existed!!!! Just watch me!!!! The *#@@@ is really getting deep around here, boy do I wish I had boots!!!!!! Hope everyone else has a really good day.

Sunshine!!!!

Yes sir reeeeeee!!! We have sunshine!!!! Today was just beautiful!! I would have loved to have been off work, but hey, it was still worth getting out of bed to see such a gorgeous day. I'm looking forward to more sunny days, as I'm sure most everyone in Ohio is, too. It has been a rough place to live lately, but there does seem to be light at the end of the tunnel. Not too much news in my life right now. My boss of 10 years did retire on the 26th of February. He and his wife stopped in where I work today and left me a very nice card of thanks for the gift I gave to him at the time of his retirement. I haven't had very many people in my life that I have associated with for any real length of time, and Mr. Thompson was one of those few. I miss him. I'm glad for him and his wife, though. Now, at last, they will get to do all the things that work got in the way of, and finally enjoy life together. Anyway, I say, kudos to you Mr. Thompson!!! I'm still trying to readjust to being single, and without kids, and I think I'm making progress. Hell, it's about time, only about 7 years on that road now!!! Well, I had 23 years as single, with kids, so I guess it's alright to still be adjusting, huh?! Well, I'm off to bed soon, and up in the morning 'cause I still got a job, Thank You, God!! Nighty, night all.

Oh, Mondays......

Did you ever notice that sometimes Mondays seem to encourage us to call it quits for a while and call off work!!!???? I feel that way so many times!!! But, I am so glad to have a job that of course I don't do that!!
I had such a wonderful weekend visiting with my son who lives in another state. Thank goodness that other state is only about one hour and 45 minutes away. Yea!!! Anyway, more later!!! I hope everyone is having a wonderful time living life !!

Oh!!! Just another day???? I say,"Wow, another day!!!!!"

I just spoke to my friend Bobbie. She has some issues to address. She is a wonderful person who is able somehow to get from life what she needs and to give back just as much, if not more, to others. This is a special person. I don't say it enough, but she is one of my heroes!!
I , also , spoke to my oldest son today. He's living life and trying to make sense of it all!! God bless him. His thoughts somehow still find time to veer towards his mother's well being, even with all of life's other issues to deal with. Oh, I am loved!! Thank you God!! I hope he does take seriously his own well being, though. Allot of detrimental issues can often be avoided if dealt with right away. I want , of course, being a mom, to see him avoid allot of downfalls that I didn't. Do as I say, not as I do, you know??!
Anyway, it is very cold. My pipes haven't frozen!! Yea!!! I am going to rinse out the conditioner on my hair and go visit a friend for a while. Life is good!!! I intend to enjoy it to the fullest.
I hope everyone out there enjoys this wonderful day to the fullest, also. Bye for now, all!!! Take care!!

Get a Move on.....

Well today is another great day of possibilities. I choose to look at my free-from -work time as that. Usually, though, it falls short of accomplishment. I tend to over-analise most things, including my free-from-work time.
I will however, find some activities that give me a sense of accomplishment, contributing to others needs and contentment. I always do, for the most part, anyway things at work are inthe hands of the almighty, as they and all things always are!!! Everyone, pretty much, has to deal with the changing job environment in one way or another.
Just as with all things in life, they change, and only time and circumstance will tell if it is going to better our lives, or make them harder. It's all just another twist in the road.
What I do get frustrated about, though, is when people decide to make you a target of some type of frustrating situation, only because they feel they can. Often, it's true that they can, or at least they think so. Later, way down the road, they''ll find themselves, during (or after) some particularly distasteful incident, wondering if at last they have reaped what they sowed!
Anyway, I hope all who (except the one(s) who purposefully harm me), have a great, wonderful day and life. Bye for now. Beware for all!!!

Water, Sweet, Sweet, Water......

This post is a little past due, but..... Well, last post I spoke about my water pipes freezing. I can't explain why, but, my water pipes unthawed after just 3 days. The temps didn't go above freezing, but somehow they unthawed. Awesome!!!! Since then I've not had any problem with them. It has been above freezing for the past 4 to 5 days now, though. I am watching the weather reports more closely and making sure that my kitchen faucet is dripping at a quick pace when it is to be below freezing as is suppose to be tonight. I am catching the dripping water to store for later use. I hate to waste it. I hope everyone else is handling the cold weather alright. That's all for now.

COLD.....FRIENDS?????!!!!!!!.......

Most have heard of the saying, "A true friend indeed, is a friend in times of need!" Well, sometimes I wonder if I have any "True Friends". I know that I do, I'm just feeling bad right now. My water pipes are frozen. No big deal, really. I do , however, have small needs that will require assistance, other than mine.
I need, of all times, to wash my hair! Actually, I need to get it colored. I tried to get myself to address this situation yesterday, but alas, I couldn't make myself do it. Now, I have no water to do the deed, and I can't get a hold of any friends that I'm sure if at all possible, would let me color my hair at their home if I could just reach them. THEY HAVE LIVES IS SEEMS! How dare they!!!!
My oldest friend is not too on the ball today when it comes to anyone, or anything that doesn't pertain to her immediate environment and the rest are unavailable at this time.
I am putting my time to use though, cleaning my domain, as long as I have a cleaner to use and don't need water.
I have been reduced to peeing in a plastic bag lined bucket, so I can let it freeze and put it in the garbage. I can't wait for my pipes to unfreeze and at the same time, I am hoping to keep all waste frozen until garbage day.
I may have to just pull myself up by my boot straps, huh????
Not to worry, I've been pretty successful at doing just that in the past. Bye for now, I gotta get done cleaning and get to Sav a lot's for some distilled water. Take care all. Hurry up warmer weather!!!!!